Another apointment !

Today I have another appointment. It has lately been appointment after appointment. Since I've been seeing Dr. Lim at The Oncology Center of Hawaii at Hilo I've been so sick that I need to be seen just about every week, three days out of the week. Usually ther appointments consist of Pic care, lab work, chemotherapy, xgieva shots (bone hardener) and nupugen shots (white blood cell booster). It's seems like I dont have time to rest between the appointments being so frequent and the taxi rides taking me to and from the appointments taking up so much of my time also with me having to get up early to leave early and sitting around the doctors office waiting to be picked up. I wish the nurses would be a little more cosiderate that I'm not getting enough rest with the way their making my appointments. Their not combining the reasons into one or two days they got me going seperate days for each reason. I know they know that I'm fatigue like hell because they see me sleeping in the lobby waiting to be called and when I'm asked I don't hold back telling them how I feel. And It's not just those reasons I'm on the road due to my health I also have to go to the pharmacy to get my pain meds.
    I guess I'm just tired, it's been three years now that I've been fighting this cancer and it's been without a good enough break. The first tome I got treatment on oahu at the kapiolani women and childrens Hospital I had a three mounth break when it was finished, the second time when it was at the Natchitoches Cancer Center in Natchitoches Louisiana with Dr. Dhawan that lasted 11 months until I moved back home to the Big Island of Hawaii. I tried to get my medical records faxed over to Dr. Lim but the Natchitoches Cancer Center took to long at which during the wait of four months my cancer started to get worse and was making tumors at the bottom of my spine. By the time I started treatment at home I was really sick and needed the strong stuff. My hair fell out again for the third time but it wasn't as bad as the first time but worser than the second time because I guess I'm tired of looking so ugly. Hair really does make a difference in how good a person looks. I'm tired of looking this way I wish I had hair, eye lashes and eyebrows, I can go without the rest of the body hair. I think that's the only upside to chemotherapy.
      I guess I'm just going through what every cancer patient who decides to fight it has to go through. But I tell you what, the great thing about all this is that I get to have an extention on my life. Without treatment I would've died sooner than with. And the way I look at the whole experience is I got an invitation from God to get to know Him and also a chance to get reaquainted with my Kids and family here on the Big Island. No not everyday is a gloomy day! I just wish the nurses would realize I need more down time. At least enough to feel more rested.
   Until next time may God Bless you with good health and a beautiful llife!